wonder....

[blackspirit86]

Sometime these feelings of loneliness take over my thoughts. I know what it is, it where I long for a relationship. I want someone who I can connect with spiritually and emotionally. Maybe it is the side of me that is already wanting to put down roots. But part of me still longs for adventure, to go off to some far away place. I find myself in more thought lately. Wondering what is to come in my life, what will my life in the future be like. Will I have a wife? Will I have a children? Will I make a good husband and father some day? So many questions, but yet, I still want to live, I want to see. I guess this happens when I let my thoughts take over my mind. It has been so long sense I've been in another world, be it by book or by RPG. All around me people have someone to cling too, Justin (roommate) is getting engaged, my friend JD is getting engaged, my friend Matt has a great relationship with his girlfriend Emily. All around me, people are enjoying their relationships. As usual, I am left longing for one. Sometimes I really could careless, but at times like this, I wish for one. I guess God has decided it is still not yet my time for a relationship, I need to grow a little more I guess. Post later....


Craving: cigarette